Monday, September 29, 2008

Lost Locke-ian theory

Talking to my mom makes me realize that life really is pretty good right now. Or, at least, it's not bad.

I'm fairly successfully saving up money.
I paid off 1/4th of the remaining balance on my car loan today. It should be paid off by the end of the year.
I've lost almost half of the weight I want to lose, in just over a month. That's a lot.
I have a chance of doing pretty well in my classes this semester.
I'm in general able to stay alert and pay attention at both work and school.

Not much is happening socially, but that's honestly not too much of a loss in my opinion. At least for now.

Every day, my desire to go live abroad gets stronger and stronger. Most philosophers agree on pretty much only one thing: knowledge=best. They all disagree on what exactly constitutes knowledge, but all essentially say that the attainment of knowledge is the path to all fulfillment. (Except for maybe Hobbes, but who likes Hobbes anyway. What a jerk.) In my Theory class, we just talked about John Locke (see images below) and Kant. Locke believed that when we are born, we start out as a complete blank slate- Tabula rasa - and all knowledge comes from experience. We have the ability to reason, and all of this capacity to contain information and interpret it, but it takes actually experiencing a person, place, object, etc to truly know it. So in this mindset, I have no knowledge of the world "out there" because I have no experience of/with/in it. Knowledge is paramount. Therefore? I must go.

Thanks for backing me up, Locke.

<~ John Locke from Lost John Locke the theorist~>

Thursday, September 18, 2008

10 Dislinked Items or Less

I'm weary and aching from these long cold nights
My broken smile in the making, we try to pretend it's all alright

Oh let's take a boat on that water under the bridge
we built to span the distance between your intentions
and everything you did.

After all this time and troubles we've been through
I never thought it would break my heart to hear I love you

I remember every word like it was written just for me
Forget all the scrapes and scars that cross your mending heart
Those demons will go to sleep, I'll sing them a melody
Lay your head on my shoulder now dear

What do you do when you can't seem to stop loving someone you don't even really want to be with?

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Rant rhymes with Ant

Sometimes I just get really mad. I get angry about where I am in life, or rather.. where I'm not in life. I had a plan. I was going to go to BYU, major in Physics - Astronomy, and go work for NASA. But once things started to get tough, I gave up and decided it wasn't for me. Then I changed my plan. And started it. And failed it. And changed again! And look, I'm still nowhere. I mean sure, I've got another plan that should actually get me to a diploma, but what am I really going to do with a little flimsy piece of paper that says "Congratulations, you've spent enough wasted energy at this place, we'll give you some big BS in Sociology!" I should have graduated this year. I should be in graduate school, or interning at some awesome company, or touring the world, or something. Rather than this big fat nothing.

I should have had a life!

I should go to bed.